Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Too much to say and too little time to say it

I know, I know - I haven't been writing as frequently as I once did. To think that this is the same guy who wrote a devotional every day for years and then to now look and see how little I write - life changes have grabbed a lot of the reflective time from me that fuels my writing. So many days now are just a blur- the feeling is like when as a kid you were on that playground device that you and several others sat on and pulled a bar at the top and pushed one at your feet - spinning wheel that went round so fast you'd get dizzy - that's the sum of almost every day.

I'm out the door around 6:15 and at work a few minutes later, then home around 5. We greet and eat and then I might chill for a little while, but then the grind of grading papers or planning for the next day just snatches the minutes until it's time for bed. Rinse, wash, and repeat. Except Friday when Bunny and I can enjoy some down time. Saturday is the get it done day and then that evening it is sermon finishing time.

Wednesdays are super, super long for Bunny who is cooking the meals that I'll help pack and sometimes deliver later in the evening with our New Hope friends. When I went to work at school I was cooking for 75 people. Well now we deliver more than that each week. She works all day long here at the house doing that and getting the music ready for the praise team practice at 5:30. Then she teaches piano, comes home, turns around, and comes back to New Hope for the practice and stays after that to teach New Hope's girls.

It's a lot.

So when we get home, more often than not she'll go to bed at 8:30 and I'll work for another hour or so and follow. Up at 5 again for Thursday and whatever it may bring.

So I want to write. I really really do.